I have so many different feelings, and emotions all wrapped up together. I go back and forth on feelings of excitement, joy, fear and the “holy crap I’m going to have two kids” feeling. Baby J can come any day now (and I hope it’s sooner rather than later). But despite the anxiousness of wanting not to be pregnant any longer, I am trying to enjoy these last few days before J gets here. The idea of having two boys scares the living day lights out of me, but I am also so excited for this new journey. I can’t wait for the crazy long (and sleepless nights) ahead of us. I’m excited to see who baby J will look alike. Will he have his daddy’s hair or mine? I know he will have black hair, but will he also have those cute dimples Noah has? I’m excited to see how Noah will interact with him, and how goofy he will be with him trying to make him laugh. I’m excited to hear him say his first word. I hope he says “mama” because Noah said “dada” first. I’m excited to see him accomplish all the big milestones like learning to roll over, eating, sitting up, standing, walking, etc. Most of all, I’m excited to hold baby J. Something I may never take for granted to soak in every little moment. Every snuggle, every feeding, every bath, and bedtime routine.
Ps: Hospital bags are finally packed. I can now rest easy, and relax knowing all we need is in there. Also Tonight I get to cuddle and snuggle with my little man a little longer... I can’t still believe he’s going to be a big brother.
Thank so much for reading my thoughts and please keep our little family in your prayers. We know and have a feeling baby J will be here whenever he’s ready and we are hoping for a fast and healthy delivery.
XO,
Denisse Diaz